I began this summer in hopes that I could get better spiritually. I was so lost after the lonely school year that I thought going to camp and hearing the Word on a day to day basis would fix me of my problem, like I was one of my dad's tractors. Obviously that wasn't the case. I came to lots of conclusions over the past couple weeks, and these last two weeks have been rock shakers. This last night I realized how wrong my whole reason for coming to camp was. I was not coming to this camp to lead others to Christ and to serve His people. I was coming here for me. I needed to be fixed. I needed to know how not to fall into the trap I know was waiting for me back in Sioux Falls. Everything I seemed to do was for me, somehow, someway. I heard in a message last week that you can hear many fabulous speakers that rock your life, but if you don't apply any of it, it means nothing. That's what I'd been doing. I was trying to fix me, but I wasn't putting into practice what could help me. You can buy paint to paint a house, but it doesn't change it's color til you actually apply the paint. I can buy the books, but until I apply the words to my life, they mean nothing. I started yesterday on a promise to myself and to God that the rest of the summer was going to be different. I was going to have a servants heart, and I was going to make the changes I knew I had to made, but 'didn't have the time' or I was scared. I can't even tell you how chapel that evening brought me to that conclusion, because it wasn't even that related! But God can move in anything. I also feel called to stay here a bit longer than planned. But of course that's a family discussion, despite being 21. I love my family too much to do something against their wishes. God does call you to obey your parents, ya know!
Tonight was also an amazing message. I have lots of points that Micah made both for myself, and others I know written out to show when I come home. I had always felt out of touch in my campus's prayer group and in the surrounding churches. I didn't fit, and they didn't try all that hard to fit me in. So I didn't go. But God told me very clearly tonight using Micah's message that I need to go. We all have the Spirit in us, so we are all united. It doesn't matter if your personalities are different. I instantly thought of how I never felt welcome there and then Micah said that sometimes you have to initiate. Ha! Dad's right! He's been telling me that all year!! Micah encouraged everyone to call up those people, whether it be your pastor, youth pastor, or friend, and have that community that God created us to have.
On a more newsy note, Bryce showed up here at camp today, and I was completely unprepared! I looked up and I was saying hey and greeting him before I even realized who it was! Talk about VCBC hospitality! I'm also attempting to finish up some math homework for tomorrow as well tonight. Test tomorrow! Yay Math!! (Please catch the sarcasm in that!) I'm also trying to finish a painting before Philippine's birthday, and another one for Sue of her first dog, and to start one of Andi and Toby that will be just PRECIOUS! What can I say? I like being busy!
You wanna hear a funny God story from today? So I'm living in the bottom portion of Tom and Camie's house this week, and I set my alarm for 7:30 this morning so I could shower. I wake up, walk out to use the internet and check the weather, to realize it was 8:37! WHAT?! We're supposed to be at breakfast! I go back to the room and McKayla was still sleeping too! We race to change clothes and run down to camp. I had grabbed my make-up bag to bring down for when I'd have time for such things. We had Guy/Girl talks today, which I spoke a little at that. It was a good talk for everyone. After this, one of my friends was upset, and we were sitting together in the craft room. Now, I've been missing my amazing camera since July 4th, and I was freaking out that I would not have it upon my return home. Return to story. This friend was really upset, and I lean down to give her a hug. I look down, and sticking out of the side pocket of this make-up bag is my camera!!!! Goodness I flipped!! So me and McKayla came to the realization that we were late for breakfast so I could find my camera!! God is funny. And He cares about silly things too, not just the big stuff.
Now I am a little past in cabins I believe, so I'll be ending this. Feel free to ask me questions on other aspects of camp! I'd be happy to answer them!
Tonight was also an amazing message. I have lots of points that Micah made both for myself, and others I know written out to show when I come home. I had always felt out of touch in my campus's prayer group and in the surrounding churches. I didn't fit, and they didn't try all that hard to fit me in. So I didn't go. But God told me very clearly tonight using Micah's message that I need to go. We all have the Spirit in us, so we are all united. It doesn't matter if your personalities are different. I instantly thought of how I never felt welcome there and then Micah said that sometimes you have to initiate. Ha! Dad's right! He's been telling me that all year!! Micah encouraged everyone to call up those people, whether it be your pastor, youth pastor, or friend, and have that community that God created us to have.
On a more newsy note, Bryce showed up here at camp today, and I was completely unprepared! I looked up and I was saying hey and greeting him before I even realized who it was! Talk about VCBC hospitality! I'm also attempting to finish up some math homework for tomorrow as well tonight. Test tomorrow! Yay Math!! (Please catch the sarcasm in that!) I'm also trying to finish a painting before Philippine's birthday, and another one for Sue of her first dog, and to start one of Andi and Toby that will be just PRECIOUS! What can I say? I like being busy!
You wanna hear a funny God story from today? So I'm living in the bottom portion of Tom and Camie's house this week, and I set my alarm for 7:30 this morning so I could shower. I wake up, walk out to use the internet and check the weather, to realize it was 8:37! WHAT?! We're supposed to be at breakfast! I go back to the room and McKayla was still sleeping too! We race to change clothes and run down to camp. I had grabbed my make-up bag to bring down for when I'd have time for such things. We had Guy/Girl talks today, which I spoke a little at that. It was a good talk for everyone. After this, one of my friends was upset, and we were sitting together in the craft room. Now, I've been missing my amazing camera since July 4th, and I was freaking out that I would not have it upon my return home. Return to story. This friend was really upset, and I lean down to give her a hug. I look down, and sticking out of the side pocket of this make-up bag is my camera!!!! Goodness I flipped!! So me and McKayla came to the realization that we were late for breakfast so I could find my camera!! God is funny. And He cares about silly things too, not just the big stuff.
Now I am a little past in cabins I believe, so I'll be ending this. Feel free to ask me questions on other aspects of camp! I'd be happy to answer them!
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